At twenty one, I was helping to run pubs and working as a bouncer, I was also heavily involved in the drug scene, working with the 'firm' who controlled Newcastle - 'The Geordie Mafia'. I was a very violent man who was known and feared thoughout 'Clubland'. I had been in gang warfare all my life, been shot at, stabbed, hit with glasses, bottles and iron bars, as well as being imprisoned and locked up for bank robberies. I helped run bars in Newcastle and London and have been involved with many of the top villains from London to Glasgow. I blew fortunes on drink, drugs and high living. I travelled the world met many famous people but my life was a mess and I was desperately unhappy. My life was spiralling out of control because of my Cocaine/alcohol addiction, I was hooked on other substances as well and overdosed many times. By the age of 29 I'd had enough, I had become mentally ill, totally unstable and very dangerous, breakdown was coming and I needed to change my life!